Humble Pie for A Selfish Girl... (insert Christine)

Selfishness; Adv. The exclusive of a person to his own interest or happiness; or that supreme self-love or self-preference, which leads a person in his actions to direct his purposes to the advancement of his own interest, power or happiness, without regarding the interest of others. Selfishness, in its worst or unqualified sense, is the ver essence of human depravity, and it stands in direct opposition to benevolence, which is the essence of the divine character. As God is love, so man, in his natural state, is selfishness.

I came to the conclusion that I am selfish. "I want this… I don't want that..." and so the pathetic list goes on. I don't want to be selfish, but what can I say? As a human girl, it comes naturally to me — so much so, that I don't even notice it until later reflection.
Well, I was having one of those pitiful, selfish, sort of "feel bad for myself" kind of nights. It is important to note (before you think that I'm some sort of egotistical freak) that I realize how abundantly I have been blessed [actually tremendously]. I know that there are tons of people who are worse off. I have my heavenly Father, a wonderful family, great friends, and a lovely house with good food to eat. What more could I desire? I really can't/shouldn't complain. I have been given much. And for the most part I am grateful. However, being human, I am prone to throw small pity parties for myself every now and again (I realize how dumb that sounds but its the truth); tonight being of said occasion.
I didn't even have a good reason to feel sorry for myself (which is part of the reason it was so stupid and I feel bad. Oh man). But compile the stress of a load of schoolwork, little sleep, and some minor painful injuries... and well, there you go. I knew all of this was my fault, but once the pity-party train had started, it didn't stop quickly.
Please don't think badly of me... I know you have times like this too. I hope...
Anyway, after I was all finished despairing, I turned to God and His Word. Do you want to know what He told me in those precious five minutes? (I'll tell you anyway) He told me that I am selfish. I should rejoice in everything. Not just some things... ALL things. I quickly wiped the stupid, salty tears and blew my runny, red nose and thanked God for giving me the homework and providing a way for me to be home-schooled and go to TeenWorks. Sure there is a lot of homework, but with God all things are possible. When we live in the world, its so easy to get caught up in a selfish mindset consumed with how "unfair" everything is. But in actuality, the beauty of grace is that is makes life unfair. You see, when Jesus died for us all, He saved us. That was not fair to Him or to us - we do not deserve anything. It's humbling [to say the least] to look at it from that perspective.
I just thought I'd share that with you all.

I am blessed abundantly. I am also eternally indebted to my God who gives me the very air I breathe. I think that I'll go do my work now...

Hebrews 12:28 - "Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe."